Myself in 5 Years

A lot of times as a child you get asked “what do you want to be when you grow up?” Over time this question evolves into “what do you like to do in your free time?”, “what are you going to do after high school?”, “where do you see yourself in 5 years?”, and finally the competitive question “what are you doing these days?”. 

It seems like your whole life you are expected to know what category you want to fall into, and have some sort of idea on who you want to be. And the ironic thing is that so many people want you to have an answer and then when you provide one they say, “oh watch, that will change. You’ll change your mind a thousand times.” Maybe I will, maybe I won’t. 

I’ve gotten to the point where I am now asked and asking myself where I will be in 5 years. If you’ve ever had a conversation with me, you understand that I am completely goal oriented. I set my goals, meet my goals, and then set new ones. This leads to a lot of success, but it also leads to a lot of exhaustion. Nevertheless, I power on. And since I’ve been thinking about this topic so much lately, I thought I could share with you exactly how I think my life will go so we can all look back later and laugh.

I am 19 right now. That means in 5 years I will 24 years old. 

  1. I see myself finished with school with a degree in either Business Administration or Business Management. 
  2. I imagine myself in a cute little apartment in a cute little place with cute little plants all over the living room.
  3. A tiny car or little bike will probably be my mode of transportation depending on where I decide to live. 
  4. Obviously I see my boyfriend Dakota there, and we’re probably engaged or married. Most likely engaged though. And we cook together and fight a lot but love each other. It’ll be great. 
  5. This blog will still and always be a major part of my life. I’m hoping by then it will be my full time commitment. I need your help to get me there. 
  6. I see a happily simple life in a nice town doing what I love with the person I love. Maybe there’s a puppy there too. 

All of the time I think about my future. I worry that sometimes I think so much about my future that I forget about the present. When I look at my life right now, I see it as foundations blocks for my life tomorrow. My classes, my car, my passions, all just building blocks waiting for upgrades as my life progresses. 

If you ever found my journal you would find notes after notes after notes of plans and ideas for my future. Earlier I wrote:

It’s like we’re slow motion stumbling into adulthood right now trying to land on our hands but scraping our elbows. 

That’s exactly what life feels like right now. Stumbling and tripping, bracing myself for impact but loving the fall. 

I have short term goals too. Like finishing this semester with a passing grade. Turning this passion I have for writing to you guys and slowly creating it into a career. Figuring out the next place to go after here. Traveling while I’m young. Being with my friends while I can. 

The picture in the beginning of this post is a picture of downtown New Orleans. That’s a type of place I think I may like to live. That may change, but right now that’s sort of a visual of where I would like to be soon. 

I hope y’all enjoyed reading this. Know that it is alright to not know exactly how you want to spend your life. Not too long ago I was pretty sure I wanted to go into Graphic Design or something. I started this blog and now, thanks to all the love and support I’ve gotten from you, it’s taken over my life. Now I want to go into business. A lot of changes and uncertainty has been making its way into my life lately. It’s okay to stumble. It’s okay to make mistakes. 

But while we’re young and building our foundations, we should at least be happy.

Blooming Baby

Today I wanted to do a more personal post with you guys. I feel like lately it’s been all business, fashion, makeup, and adulty stuff, so I kind of thought diving into my life on a more personal level would be a good break from all that. And hello, I love talking about myself.

I think a lot of people who read this blog know me from school or work, and a lot of you are family members. So many of you already know me, but we don’t always get to catch up. Here’s our chance. Please contact me back and let me know what all of you are up to as well. 

I recently turned 19 not too long ago, which feels pretty unreal. I mean, it’s always like right when you get used to saying how old you are, it changes again. I have to say though, I am terrified of turning 20. It’s like, that’s it. No more teenage years. Things really settle there it seems. My boyfriend turns 20 this May. I’m not sure how he’s feeling about it. 

Speaking of my boyfriend:

Dakota and I have been together for 2 years tomorrow. How insane is that?? That’s a long time. We’ve been through a lot together already and look forward to more adventures coming our way. He’s always supporting me and my decisions, checking in on me, and inspiring me everyday. He helps out more with this blog than y’all know. 

Look at those blue eyes ladies? Aren’t they just adorable? I tell him a lot how his eyes are like the ocean or little crystals. And his smile is heartwarming. We’re celebrating our anniversary this Sunday by taking a day trip out of town. I will be taking lots of pictures and showing y’all some of the things we got to experience, including what we wore, this upcoming Monday. 

So the title of this post “Blooming Baby” comes definitely from the season we are in, but also for the growing up I am doing. I mean, who knew a fun little blog would turn into a dedication? Would inspire me to start a more creative path? In high school I always thought I would use my artistic skills to form a career. That’s like, who I was in high school. Always drawing or something. And now to see my passions manifest into something that reaches different countries all the over the world is amazing!! 

 There are so many new things going on and coming up, but don’t worry. Keep up with me and you’ll find out soon enough. Hopefully, there will be a lot more traveling and experiences, (especially museums and coffee shops). I’m hoping to find more hole-the-wall places, visit nearby towns, maybe go on a cruise or festival or something. I’m almost 20. It’s about time to start getting lost. 

Another thing that’s been on my mind a lot is friends. After high school, my closest friends and I sort of found different paths in life, which is totally natural. We knew the day would come, and we accepted it with smiles. We were more excited that each of us had specific plans for the future than we were worried about wedging our ways into each other’s lives. I have good friends that I work with, good friends that I run into, and good friends that I don’t talk to everyday, but I know they always have my back. 

Now more than ever, I find it important for me to separate myself from toxic things and people. I’ve always had a very bad habit of letting hurtful people in my life, and I don’t want to do that anymore. It’s important to surround yourself with people who genuinely only want the best for you, especially at this very vulnerable stage in life. 

I’m blooming into a powerful young woman, and I see this happening for lots of ladies all over the world. It’s a wonderful thing. I wanted to give y’all a little update and for you to know I’m human too, not just outfits and makeup. It truly does mean the world when I hear someone tell me they read my blog. Thank you so much. I will be updating you more as life gets crazier! Thank you for reading and I will see you soon.