Emma, WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN? 

As some of you have noticed, I went MIA there for a little while. I didn’t post anything on this blog for two weeks. Two weeks!! That’s a long time. But I wanted to explain to my loyal readers why I was gone, and remind you that I’m back and I’ve come swinging. 

I first decided to take a break because I started to get really stressed. School is starting this month, and there are so many things my mind makes me worry about even if there’s no logical reason behind it. I was worried about being prepared for school in every way possible, worried about money (I’m always worried about money), worried about time management, and just worried in general. 

Honestly, I was really worried about keeping this blog up and running. Even in the summer, jumping from job to job, I sometimes found uploading to be difficult, as you could probably tell from my posts being a day or two off schedule. Again, I apologize for that. Since I was already having so much trouble keeping my blog going during the summer, I started to stress about how I was going to keep this baby afloat while going to school full time and having a job. 

I also wanted to make sure I was putting out quality content for you guys. Sometimes I get so lost in the task of posting that I don’t think hard enough for my content. That’s a no no. Bad Emma. I needed to step back and have some time to think up some really cool and fun ideas for y’all. 

Okay, so one of the things I was working on in my absence was launching my clothing. For the past few months I’ve been taking some old clothes and redesigning them. I’ve also been hand making jewelry, just having fun with my creative fashionable side. I’ve opened a tint little shop on Depop. Below are a few examples of what I have for sale. (Shoutout to Hailey for modeling for me like a pro.) 

These are just a few examples of what I currently have for sale. Soon I am going to link all my products on a new page of my blog, but in the meantime if you are interested in checking out my Depop shop, my username is @ewolfe. 

That’s one exciting thing I’ve been secretly working on. The next is I recently found an old book I started writing in high school. A few of my friends have begun reading what I have so far, but the book is still far from being completed. However, I really think I’m onto something with this book, so I wanted to offer y’all a little exert of the product as is. 

Are you ready? Here we go.

The day drones on and on. Everyday drones on and on. There is no more waking up at 6:30 in the morning on a Saturday. There is nothing left to do.

    Sometimes, I stop by to visit Monica’s mother. I go to that big, white, unbelievable house, and knock Monica and my secret knock. Three times fast, two times hard, double ring bell, knock once. It used to be that Monica’s mother was never home, so this knock never bothered her before. Nothing bothered her before. Not the bottles in trash. Not the withering bones of her daughter.

    After Monica died, her mother’s business collapsed. Her clients started to say, “Why would I take counseling from a woman who can’t even control her daughter?” Harsh, these people. Ignorance adorns them.

    Today is Sunday, January 10th, 2:00 p.m. I do the secret knock, over and over and over again. “Jess, go away!” I hear from behind the door. Knock, knock, knock, “Jess, get off my property!” Ring, Knock, Bang, Bang, BANG

    Eventually, I lose rhythm, and start wailing on the door. Kicking it hard, leaving marks. I slam my fist on the doorbell and break the button. Monica’s mother screams at me to go away, but I refuse.

    Finally, the door swings open and she stands there. Pajamas, mascara, and a mess of hair. Wild eyes that are dry. Dry here, dry at the funeral. And I stand up straight like Monica taught me.

    “What do you want?” She asks me, furious. I knock every Sunday, but usually not for this long. Usually I get tired and walk away. But not today.

    “Monica.” I answer. “I want Monica.”

    “Monica’s gone.” She spits.

    “Thanks to you.” I hate her.

    “Thanks to me?” Her eyebrows arch.

    “She told you. And you didn’t listen. You didn’t care.”

    “And she didn’t tell you.”

    I wrinkle my eyebrows. My heart sinks. And my hand bleeds as I scratch my car key against my palm in my jacket pocket.

    “She didn’t tell you.” She repeats. She steps outside onto the porch, barefoot. Her toenail polish is chipped. I step backward at her advance. “She didn’t trust you. And you weren’t there.”

    “I was the only one there.”

    “Don’t lie to yourself.”

I pause. I stare into her eyes. Green. Bright green like Monica’s. And I realize for the first time, that I have no idea what this lady’s name is.

    “Are you going to visit her?” I ask.

    “Visit who?”

    “The grave. The one with the tombstone that has your daughter’s name on it.” She doesn’t answer me. Just looks confused.

    “Next time you go,” I say, “if you ever do,” I’m bleeding, “you should check out the dates.”

    Today’s Monica’s birthday. 

WHOA, WHOA, WHOA!! HOLD THE PHONE. 

Y’all weren’t expecting all that, huh? I bet you were expecting some little sappy love story but instead I took y’all down a depressing rollercoaster ride. I bet y’all have so many questions. Who’s Monica? How’d she die? Why is her mother such a b*tch?!?! Guess you’re gonna have to wait until the book is doneeeee.
Aside from making clothes, photographing clothes, uploading the pictures of clothes, and dedicating hours upon hours into the night for this book, I’ve also been drawing a little again. I don’t want to include any pictures of my artwork yet because they’re still in the works, so I will probably be making a whole separate post for those. I’ve also been reading some new books, which I will also be keeping behind the scenes because I want to write some reviews for y’all. 

Basically, I’ve been busting my little busy bee booty trying to be creative. I just wanted y’all in on a little behind the scenes, so you know that although I am not always punctual, I am always working very hard.

I actually have a HUGE product in the works for you. Gigantic. Massive. Extraordinary. You just wait and see. 

Thank you for staying tuned and being patient with me. Peace, 

Emma Katy 

Shameless (US) S1-S7 Review

You’ve heard of Shameless, right? It’s an extremely dramatic and heart wrenching TV series that you will fall in love with and want to hold like a child. Sound strange?? Watch it and you’ll see what I mean. 

Shameless, for those of you who don’t know, is kind of like Breaking Bad meets the Brady Bunch. There’s a lot of bad things happening to this somewhat large family, but they all love each other and work together. It’s set in Chicago, the South Side, and it depicts the lives of the Gallaghers. 

1) The acting: The acting is extremely good. When I watch this show, I lose myself in the reality of it all. Everything looks so genuine, and everything feels so intense. 

2) The music: Music is such a huge factor in setting the mood of a show. I never really noticed the music until season 7. There’s a song and as soon as I heard it I was like “WTF is THIS??!!” And excuse my language, but it’s called “Baddest Mother F*cker in the Beehive”. I forget the band name, but I listen to this song All. The. Time. I think Season 6 and 7 are my favorite seasons, due to music and plot. 

3) The clothing: Since this show depicts people in the poverty line, they do not care much about extensive style. I don’t go there for styling tips, but sometimes they have really cool pieces that I’m like “ugghhh, where did they find that?” Probably a thrift store. No shame in that game. 

4) The script: The script is great. Everything is like a real conversation. Nobody says something corny, or lame, or unconventional. Everything seems raw and heart felt. Every actor/actress delivers their lines with a determination that’s seems effortless and natural. It’s wonderfully written and gets more and more and more hilarious every season. 

The Sad but Honest Truth:

Shameless is a good show for a number of reasons, as listed above. But there is also so much truth that lies within that show. When I first started watching it, I had no idea some people can have such a life so opposite of mine. That being honest or on the straight and narrow doesn’t work for everyone. 

I think everyone goes through this life thinking we all start on the same foundation. For a long time I didn’t realize that not everyone started their life with parents to teach them. Not everyone had the privilege of guidance. I didn’t take into account that not everyone gets money for their birthday and Christmas. 

Some people are disadvantaged from the get-go and I feel like Shameless introduced me to that reality. Fiona, the oldest sister, had to drop out of school to raise her siblings. She didn’t have a choice. Lip does what he can to help support the family, as they are barely getting by. Everyone in the show works harder and harder every season. 

I think it’s important to realize this. I hear a lot of people say things like “well I did it, why can’t you?” And I’ve probably said this a dozen times. But the honest truth is people don’t have the same advantages I had, whether it’s because I’m white, female, middle class, skinny, or feminine. Isn’t that crazy??? Isn’t that horrible? 

So yeah, I know some people may deam this as over analyzing. But the show depicts this exact situation many times. 

This show also explores many popular topics, such as drug abuse, proverty, alcoholism, mental illnesses, teen pregnancy-especially in inner cities, sexualities such as gay and transgender, and homelessness. This show is an overhaul of educating yourself. Plus, it’s so expertly written you don’t even realize you’re learning. You think you’re watching an amazing show that makes you laugh. 

Another great thing about this show is that the characters never do what you want them to. You’ll be screaming at your TV “Don’t do it!” And they will. They always will. But that’s what’s great. I know a lot of shows introduce a problem, but then it always gets fixed. The day is always saved. And everything goes back to normal. Shameless does a fantastic job with the storyline. It constantly changes. What gets broken stays broken. What happens doesn’t just go away. The characters have to live with their mistakes, just like in real life. The present is the new normal. There are no do-overs. Very realistic fictional show. 

All in all, this show is fantastic. It’s been one of my favorites for a while now. It’s definitely worth the hype. And honestly, skip the first episode. The intro will make you think the show sucks. That’s what happened to me. Just go right into episode 2 and you’re good to go. 

Thanks for reading. Go check out this show. You will not regret it. 

Peace,

Emma Katy

Fitspo: Exercising/ Motivation

All of us are busy bees. Buzz buzz. We all have so much on our plates. Jobs, college, kids, rent, responsibilities galore!! Many of my coworkers have multiple jobs, and with school beginning soon, there is so much stress. 

I experience this personally. What 19-early 20 year olds don’t? We are constantly running around trying to get ahead in life. But we aren’t ACTUALLY running. 

Freshman 15 (pounds that is) packs on, we load up on the sugary coffee, the fast food in between classes or shifts, and do what we can to stay awake. How then, do we stay healthy? How do we keep track of it all? 

A healthier lifestyle, while maintaining a pretty good cash flow, a decent sleep schedule, a fashionable look, and an above average social life, has been a goal of mine. I’ve finally found a pretty good pace for me to move at without feeling like a walking zombie. 

Last Friday, the post before this one (got a little distracted with the 4th of July holiday) I wrote about Intermittent fasting. Basically, it’s a dieting technique that’s great for beginners. Along with dieting and documenting my food, I have also been trying to exercise on a regular basis. 

It is so hard to get started. You think to yourself “I’m already SO busy, and I’m pretty healthy as it is.” You’re lying. I would tell myself I’m fine, and then something would happen to prove I’m basically not. Here’s what you gotta do:

1) Sneak it into your schedule. 

Even if it’s as minimal as possible. Even if it’s not even the muscles you want to work on. Feel the burn somewhere. I personally like to do squats whenever I’m not in the right area to do crunches or cardio. I will literally do a few squats in the restroom, shower, while I brush my hair or whatever. It’s an easy exercise to do. Just a simple way to get started. 

2) Carve out your free time. 

Another good thing to do is figure out when you have free time. Do you have more leisure time before work, or do you have more after work? How long is this free time? For me, I usually have 5 minutes free time before going into work. I always seem to estimate 5 minutes too long. This is when I do a few crunches, just to get a little exercising into my day. 

3) Ultilize yourself. 

I am not a morning person. I like to sleep in. So if I’m already not a morning person just to be lazy, I am definitely not going to become a morning person just to work out. This means I work out at night. Even if I just get off work, even if I already took a shower that morning, even if it’s the weekend, even if I’m tired af. Utilizing myself when I am most comfortable. That’s the easiest way. 

4) Pep Talk

This is a necessity. This applies to daily life, but it’s also a good tip for exercising. People could tell you everyday you can do it, but if you tell yourself the opposite, you’ll do the opposite. 

I try to challenge myself as I exercise. If before I start I tell myself I’m gonna do 15 squats I’ll then make my goal of 15, then try to do 20 or 25. I do this with all the different exercises I do. I’ve gotten up to 30 with each set I do before feeling sore. This makes me feel like I accomplished my goals, and did extra. Major confidence boost. 

You can do whatever you set your mind to. For whatever reason you’re trying to be healthier, it is totally worth it. You will see results, and you will thank yourself for it. 

5) You are Beautiful or Handsome anyways. 

Many people go on this journey thinking they aren’t good looking enough as it is. If exercising will give you the confidence you want, go for it. That’s what inspired me in the first place. But throughout this process I keep checking my reflection. Seeing changes definitely makes me happy, but I mainly just want my body to be healthier and take better care of it. 

Thank you so much for reading. I know there’s a lot of pressure out there to have a summer body, and constant pressure to look perfect anyways. But if you do in this for yourself, the rewards will be priceless. You’ll notice a difference, not only physically but mentally as well. 

Until next time, peace, 

Emma Katy